MY DIARY

I was walking around in a store, when I saw a Cashier hand this little boy some money back.

The boy couldn't have been more than 5 or 6 years old.

The Cashier said, 'I'm sorry, but you don't have enough money to buy this toy.'

Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him: ''Granny, are you sure I don't have enough money? ''

The old lady replied: '' You know that you don't have enough money to buy this toy, my dear.''

Then she asked him to stay there for just 5 minutes while she went to look around. She left quickly.

The little boy was still holding the toy in his hand.

Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him who he wished to give this toy to.

'It's the toy that my sister loved most and wanted so much for Christmas. She was sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her.'

I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus would bring it to her after all, and not to worry.

But he replied to me sadly. ' No, Santa Claus can't bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the toy to my mommy so that she can give it to my sister when she goes there.'

His eyes were so sad while saying this.

'My Sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mommy is going to see God very soon too, so I thought that she could take the toy with her to give it to my sister.''

My heart nearly stopped.

The little boy looked up at me and said: 'I told daddy to tell mommy not to go yet. I need her to wait until I come back from the mall.'

Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me 'I want mommy to take my picture with her so she won't forget me.'

'I love my mommy and I wish she doesn't have to leave me, but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister.'

Then he looked again at the toy with sad eyes, very quietly.

I quickly reached for my wallet and said to the boy. 'Suppose we check again, just in case you do have enough money for the toy? ''

'OK' he said, 'I hope I do have enough.' I added some of my money to his without him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough for the toy and even some spare money.

The little boy said: 'Thank you God for giving me enough money!'

Then he looked at me and added, 'I asked last night before I went to sleep for God to make sure I had enough money to buy this toy, so that mommy could give It to my sister. He heard me! ''

'I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mommy, but I didn't dare to ask God for too much. But He gave me enough to buy the toy and a white rose. ''

'My mommy loves white roses.'

A few minutes later, the old lady returned and I left with my basket.

I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I started. I couldn't get the little boy out of my mind.

Then I remembered a local newspaper article two days ago, which mentioned a drunk man in a truck, who hit a car occupied by a young woman and a little girl.

The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-sustaining machine, because the young woman would not be able to recover from the coma.

Was this the family of the little boy?

Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the newspaper that the young woman had passed away.

I couldn't stop myself as I bought a bunch of white roses and I went to the funeral home where the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make last wishes before her burial.

She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest.

I left the place, teary-eyed, feeling that my life had been changed forever ... The love that the little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to this day, hard to imagine.

And in a fraction of a second, a drunk driver had taken all these away from him.

This is not the right time for you

You must wait, circumstance will change than do it

Many of us listened to these sentences. But my friend if you wait for the right time to come into your life it will never come by its own. If you think, then whole life you will be thinking so Get up, do something, do anything…just make a start.” don’t wait for good time or good opportunities to come and welcome you. How much time of your life you had wasted just in a waiting for things to happen by its own and many of us just finished by a disappointment.

Waiting for a better break, or a new job to take,
or the phone to ring, or what money will bring,
or health and wellbeing, or a relationship with meaning,
or things to be better, or different weather,
or waiting for tomorrow, or something to borrow,
Something has to change for you to be happy, right? Wrong, the truth is you can be happy right now! You don’t have to wait for someone or something, or for tomorrow, before your life is joyful and meaningful.  

You always blame and complain about people and problems creating the unhappiness
in your life, no friend no one creates unhappiness into your  life you your self is responsible for your feelings you don’t have to wait for someone or something to bring pleasure into your life you are the key to your contentment. Each day offers many opportunities to be
joyful, but we don’t always recognize them.

Just look at the beauty all around you, as well as things, situations and people already in your life. Many of the time we just ignore the diamond’s already there in your life in search of stones and that is true There is a lot to be thankful for and enjoyed if you

  You are the creator of the time and no one else. If you are waiting for happiness or someone neither the happiness neither come nor will that someone come into your life

Learn to enjoy every minute of your life. Be happy now. Don’t wait for something outside of yourself to make you happy in the future. Think how really precious is the time you have to spend, whether it’s at work or with your family. Every minute should be enjoyed and savored.

Are you all living on this lines?

If not then just do it.

Did you ever seen an infant child learning to walk, may be at his first attempt kid stand on his legs and fall, many time but after giving lots of try at last kid was able to stand on his feet and start walking it happens with all of us in our childhood, but we ever realized that if at that moment we lose our self  in fear of falling than we will never ever able to walk on our feet.

   In my words fear is the feeling of the unknown. And a strong desire of anticipation. It is an emotion of something that wishes to be 'discovered' and made conscious.in simple words fear is nothing just and imagination of our subconscious conscious mind did not get this OK let me take to you  the time when you just finished with your exams and your result time come did you ever noticed your situation your state of mind at that time uncountable imaginary thoughts are running in your mind which have no existence with your reality and that is the only truth because your result is out and you got your desirable marks. But you realized where you take your mind few minutes before the result undefined able.

It was not ended here every day we live our life with fear all over from we had chained our life with this unwanted fear. Fear has the power to destroy God's work in us. Fear can become our unwanted god it has a dominating power on you. Fear is really a root of all evil.All suicide cases has only one reason fear, fear of failure, fear of losing someone fear of fear. It’s really a sad part of our life that many of the people finish their life just because of their bloody imaginary fear.

I ask one thing from you why? The things of which you are in fear may be happened in your past or maybe it’s your imagination that it will effect into your coming time. Friend I don’t think there is any use of keeping your past fear alive today or having the fear of something which you had never seen. You waste your life thinking of something that just live in your imagination and not with you.

I just want to dedicate one line for all those who are in fear of any dam things friend ’DAR DAR KAI JEEOGAI TO ROZ MAR MAR KAI JEEOGAI’. Yup that is true fear is other name of death. Fear keeps us in the background. It convinces us we can never accomplish our dreams, tells us to keep quiet, and separates us from the ones we love. Fear has an unparalleled ability to freeze us in our tracks, and limit what we are willing to try. Fear makes us lead a smaller life.

I do not say there is no such thing as fear. Fear does exist. But it exists in your life by your permission only, not because it is needful as a warning against "evil."

Don’t fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things. The saddest summary of life contains three descriptions: could have, might have, and should have

Everyone in between us dream of something actually the right phrase  is that every time we want something big or may be small but our desires never end and having desires in your life is never wrong unless otherwise it’s against your ethics and values.

               Often, we dream big dreams and have great aspirations. Unfortunately, our dreams remain just those dreams. And our aspirations easily collect dust in our attic. That is where we get wrong

             This is a sad turn in our life. Instead of experiencing exciting adventures in self-actualization, we get caught up in the humdrum of living from day-to-day just barely existing.

                           But you know what? Life could be so much better, if only we learned to believe that impossible is nothing. Infect the word impossible itself spell I’m possible so what’s the point of talking when we know that impossible itself says that he is possible. Napoleon Bonaparte once remarked "That the word 'impossible' is found only in the dictionary of fools". In this world, everything is possible on the basis of will power, determination and sacrifice.

   Sometime you may strike up with the thinking. I can't do this. It's too hard. It's too impossible. No one can do this. However if everyone thought that, there would be no inventions, no innovations, and no breakthroughs in human accomplishment and even you will also won’t come in this world.

But still if you ever struck up with this thinking and nothing makes you up than my friend always remember my words ‘have faith’ faith in yourself and faith on those who faith on you that you can do this. Faith, works like miracle. It looks beyond all boundaries, transcends all limitations, conquers all obstacles and carries you to your goal. Therefore have faith, take courage and march ahead, onward and upward, till you attain the goal.

  

 If you limit yourself with self-doubt, and self-limiting assumptions, you will never be able to break past what you dream impossible. If you reach too far out into the sky without working towards your goal, you will find yourself clinging on to the impossible dream

          Thomas Edison once said that genius is 1% inspiration and 99% perspiration. But note that that 1% has to be a think-big dream, and not some easily accomplished one.

Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live the world they have been given, rather than to explore the power they have to change it.

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